February 2012
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January 2012
1 post
December 2011
4 posts
November 2011
1 post
...... honestly this is it.......
So i just told someone that basically they were too attractive for me to talk to. i rejected them based solely on the fact that i knew my insecurities were far too large for me to interact with him on a romantic level. he was sweet. and interested in me based on what he saw on FB and that scares me. i look fricken nuts on FB and i think ive taken solace in the fact that by being a drag queen...
September 2011
1 post
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July 2011
4 posts
Listen: New preview of Sugababes comeback single... →
Amazeballs
For the excitement if anything.....
I’m not sure why it matters to me. A friend once made an observation about me. “I know how it means alot to you that everyone likes you.” and i think its been something ive battled with my entire life. The idea of being “Liked” of being wanted. but while it seems to be such a simple idea living your life for yourself and being happy by yourself is something that...
Grandeur....
In all the places ive seen and in all the ways i have i still have yet to feel this kind of thing. I think ive felt fleeting passings by of it. i think ive felt the kind of joy of knowing being loved back the way ive put it out there. i love when they say “You just need to put yourself out there” how far out there is there? is it a place; is it a there? havnt i gotten there yet?...
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In all of the world ive seen i havnt seen u. Not till now. I walked, I worked, and I passed through everyday waiting for our meeting. I existed for you. I breathed the very same breath to the same beat and like you, i mirrored u so like and so opposite you. the yin and shit. the yang or somthing like it. ive become an animal of a different kind now. we are one and the same now. somthing far...
August 2009
1 post
Just brilliant!
June 2009
5 posts
a small rant on responsibility to ones self....
Im walking a very shaky path. i havnt been able to keep things in check. i need to get back into the hybernation mode. i need to get back to a place where i can harvest everything! i cannot friviously live like a maniac anymore. i cant keep destroying any means of growing. i need to make everything possible and right now its very much so not possible. i am going to have to take on the...
A beautiful song by the queen mother.
so ya...
its 430 and i should really be getting ready for work. i Ate some really bad stuff yesterday and its going to make me do a massive jump backwards. i think im going to start using this blog as an emotional outlet for my shit. noone really looks at it anyway at least noone i think is going to judge me one way or another because theyve seen the worst in me anyhow. besides thats all behind me now. now...
May 2009
1 post
March 2009
11 posts
getting the motivation back !
ooooooooookay so ive been in a weird funk and i didnt even know it. i think the whole happenings of recent and my psychoness trying to break out was a lil jarring to my psyche. so ive batten down the hatches and ive used some pretty decent railroad spikes to do so so i think hes pretty much down for the moment. i fed him some ruffies and now hes pleasant bleeding opening all over the floor of my...
Its about 130.....
Its about 130 maybe a little later. Ive been working on some new stuff and getting ideas for others. listening to the right tracks, schemeing the extravaganza. it now only a matter of time till i see the right road. im alittle wired now but my energy is fading. my eyes are starting to hurt and i know that time for sleep draws near. Im excited for tomorrow and all the opportunity a new day brings....
Just amazing. Robyn and Royksopp.
a beautiful and chilling song. “glass”...
pushing back...
So opportunities come and go. not having all the information make things difficult and i have found yet again, because this discovery isnt somthing new to me at all, that humanity has set things up to stunt the progression of itself. anyone trying to make a futherment to their quality of life is made to realize just how impossible that is. i find that laws are set forth so that if u dont have any...
February 2009
13 posts
Somthing nice and wonderful to listen to. From...
Greatness in Solitary.
I find myself in my room alone it is around 340 am and honestly i am incredibly comfortable. with the fact of my solitary to the fact that i can jus lay here and watch my cartoons and look at the beautiful art i find. This comfort is strange to me when i realize how incredubly different my feelings on being alone were only a few years ago. i was so scared to think about the idea of being alone. i...
Newest Royksopp! chillest happy song ever!...
Fuck this shit!!!!!! Cheaaaaaa!
I think to spite the fate my life is turning toward i am going to produce an image. i find that the only way to give the powers that be a massive middle finger is use the talents granted me through my own hard work. Life is dealing me even more sour grapes and lemons the size of a house so im going to make a surplus of lemonade and some really kick ass wine. and say fuck all the bad shit because...
Rock out to this shit! From the newest of Bloc...
A reflection on the creative world...
So i have to reflect on the state of the creative world right now. It all started with an artist i came to respect recently. Kelly Clarkson. yes i know she is commercial; an artist derived by a contest voted on by the idiots of the world. well with no real surprise those idiots lost interest when the singing siren took steps into the creative realm to ecome a legitimate artist in her own right...
Dido “hunter” the words make so much...
To meddling fucks..........
When i wake up my mind is clear. im not thinking of anything. i start my day completely wiped of all the bullshit that has accumulated from the day before and the daybefore that. this is somthing of a miraculous thing that has developed in my mind because from what i can tell most people dont seem to let go of anything. I think that after a life of perpetually dealing with stupidity and people...
The first of the many.........
Okay so im late on this shit but what else is new. ive been posting on my myspace and my facebook but those things are slowly getting more and more lame as time passes and i find that this format (the blog) is a much more legitimate way to post the ideas and craziness of everyday life and all that entails. i am going to say things on this that ur probably not going to like or agree with but if u...
new prodigy. enjoy.
